Having accessibility to the outdoors is something I didn’t realize I would not only miss but crave once it was gone. It never crossed my mind that being close to mother nature would become a necessity. The few moments I now spend in nature […]
Having accessibility to the outdoors is something I didn’t realize I would not only miss but crave once it was gone. It never crossed my mind that being close to mother nature would become a necessity. The few moments I now spend in nature slowly become a way of reviving the soul and giving purpose to life. It wasn’t until moving to New York that these realisations came forward. When a substantial amount of time has gone by since last being in the outdoors, a restlessness begins to gnaw at every part of me. Little quick trips here and there helps but living in a place that makes it more accessible is what keep my insanity at bay.
Back in March during the second trip to Joshua Tree, more time was spent exploring the National Park and taking complete advantage of the desert landscape. Months later, I find that some nights my dreams are consumed with those moments of chasing the sunset in the park and being in a state of tranquility. Dreams always have a way of shedding light on what is needed and mine are always saying that I need the outdoors. I long to become one with the outdoors, the wild. I want to breathe it where it consumes every being of me.
“That’s the thing about being one with the wild, you’re always growing.” – Wilder
Today is about getting down to the nitty gritty on skin care. It has been a long battle with my skin and I’m just now starting to figure it out. It’s an issue that I feel we don’t spend enough time educating or familiarising ourselves with, at least at a young age. Too much of my life has been spent treating my skin the wrong way and not knowing exactly what my skin needs to be healthy and happy. As a woman I know the pressure and importance of having flawless skin and it can be very frustrating when your skin is far from that.
I am reminded of this struggle by the horrific memory of being made fun of in fifth grade for having my first pimple. I was one of the very first children to start developing acne. From that point forward it only got worse along with my self confidence, causing me to wear an enormous amount of makeup in hopes of hiding. I can think back to being jealous of my girlfriends who seemed to have dodged the acne train and already mastered having flawless skin at such a young age. It wasn’t until my senior year of high school and after countless visits to the dermatologist that I decided to try the controversial medication, accutane.
The process of being on accutane was not easy, especially as a girl because you have to constantly get tested to make sure you are not pregnant while taking it. The acne however started to clear up right away and I had never seen my face look so clear. However I made the decision to graduate high school early and attend a semester at National Outdoor Leadership School. Due to living in the wilderness for three months for the semester I wasn’t allowed to stay on accutane. It was a short time that I was taking the medication but the combination of being on it for a little while and living in the wilderness for three months, not wearing makeup, my face was unbelievably clear, giving me this confidence that I never had.
From that year leading into my college years I was feeling confident that I had my skin under control. I’d have a few acne flare ups here and there but nothing compared to what I dealt with all throughout my pre-teen/teenage years. Even after college my skin seemed to be under control. It wasn’t until this past year that I noticed it started to flare up significantly again to the point where I felt I didn’t have control over it anymore. I’ve looked past on this year to think if there is anything in particular that could cause this and I realized that I have been under an enormous amount of stress, my eating habits haven’t been the greatest and I haven’t been exercising as much as I normally do. I’ve made a few changes but noticed it hasn’t made a big difference in my skin, only causing more frustration and flashbacks to those earlier times of having awful skin. It wasn’t until recently that my sister suggested getting a facial at Heyday.
To be completely frank I have always been nervous to get a facial because all I’ve heard is horror stories not to mention my skin can be very sensitive. After hearing about how much my sister loved this place I figured I’d give it a try, not to mention my patience with my skin was starting to run low so I figured what the hell?!
It has now been over a month since I got that first facial and I have already gone in for a second one. They suggested I completely switch skincare products based on my skin type after looking at it through a scope. There are still a few flare ups but for the most part my skin is on the mend. Others have made comments about my skin looking more fresh and radiant. During the first visit I got a complete breakdown of my skin, what has been causing it to breakout more than usual and whether the skincare products I was using were helping or not. Turns out they were not, my skin is on the oily side and the products I was using were stripping the oils so much, causing my skin to overproduce oil, resulting in a never ending cycle. After receiving a whole analysis on my skin for the first time, I was so upset that I didn’t do something like this ages ago. It would’ve saved me from a long time of frustration and bad skincare habits.
So here’s my thank you to Heyday for changing my skincare routine and giving me hope that keeping my skin clear won’t always be such a constant battle.
With the New Year here you will begin to hear about everyone’s Resolutions. You know, that dreaded word that means to do or not do something or in other terms something that you keep up for the first few weeks of January and then you forget all together. Instead of relying on resolutions I am setting goals for myself. Not only monthly goals but year long goals. I find that I have a better chance of following through with them if in my mind I view them as goals instead of resolutions.
With that being said a goal of mine for 2018 is to read more. When I was little I was a major bookworm. I remember going to the bookstore and being so entranced by all the endless stories that surrounded me that I couldn’t wait to immerse myself into. My mom would always find me on the floor with a pile of books next to me, I’d have to pick a couple at a time and then write down the rest to pick up next time. We also had a nighttime routine of her having to take my books away otherwise I would stay up all night under my covers reading, resulting in me not being able to get up for school the next day. Needless to say my head was always in a book.
Sadly the older I’ve gotten the more that part of me seems to be lost. It slowly began end of college and now I struggle to pick up one book to read. 2018 will be the year that changes, I have joined the reading challenge on Goodreads and have set a goal of 12 books to read this year. I already have a list of ones that have accumulated dust on my bookshelf that will now get the love and use they were destined for.
Follow along on my quest to reactivate the bookworm side of me on Goodreads. I will be marking every book I’ve read along with providing a quick review of it.
Comment below on what book you are currently reading or a book you highly recommend for me to read!